An Invitation of Monotony & Comfort

I figured that when I got home I would be able to sense a lot more of my progress than I did in India. For the most part, I was right.

Being sort of back in a routine here at home I am easily getting stuck in the monotony that life tends to comfort you with. This monotony is actually quite welcomed for 2 reasons: 1) To be able to recall what my life was like before India, and 2) To be able to notice when things are not quite the same as before. Both of these aspects apply to me physically as well as emotionally.

Prior to venturing to India, I would have never suspected that something was missing from my life or that I didn't completely know who I was. After having spent everyday out there, literally and figuratively, standing in front of myself and having to face my own fears and hopes and determinations on a daily basis; this can take a toll on one's ego, but also send it soaring to a new level of awareness of being. I feel so blessed to have undergone this journey to have been able to explore my innards and ignite my soul. I can't simply remember what it was like before to not know.

Likewise, this summer has leant me a new promise of expectation for my body. By no means can I feel, but I do recognize my body in a way that I never have. All of the little neural excitations that are being formed are causing a heat-wave, a carnival ride, and a downpour all at the same time. Although I welcome these changes, sometimes I do not pay the attention to them that they deserve because sometimes I don't really believe myself that they are there.

I am excited to continue my everyday, mundane life here in order to challenge what I know in every possible realm. It is important to always be able to challenge what you know and what you are comfortable with. For without being able to launch yourself out of your own identity and comfort, you will ever truly know your how your honest, ever-cautious soul feels on the matter.